Organization

Ah, Organization. Not my favorite word in the world. I am going to attempt to organize my room and my car today. I was going to do the whole house, but I think I need to take tiny bites. I'm going to rearrange my room while I'm at it too. :) I think I can get it to where I have a little more space in my cramped room while also cleaning. Before I do anything I'm going to go the gym. I don't usually go in the morning, but today I feel that if I don't I won't go at all. I am starting to see some results in my calves and arms so that is thrilling :) even though I haven't started to see dramatic scale results. I talked to both my trainer and to my doctor and both of them said it can take a couple months to see results on the scales especially since I was basically going from sedentary to active.

I bought my dress/tickets for Sarah's wedding in November!! I'm so excited to see everyone. Hopefully by then I have some sort of direction. I have a roommate... I might not have said that on here before... but anyway she is considering finding a new job. It really is a miserable situation here at work, so I can't blame her although I'll miss the financial help if she moves. Maybe after the gym I'll go to the library. I have a book craving and I don't want to spend more money. :P hehe.

One thing my life coach suggested for this week is to get into contact or at least attempt to contact a few authors who can talk to me about the publishing world. She suggested I read a book "Secrets of Six-Figure Women," which I read yesterday. The book is great and we'll see how I can see if I can make some of the "secrets" work for me. But, anyhow, the book is written by a local woman. She's really quite famous, but she lives right around here. So anyway, I'll see if I can get in contact with her as well. The writer is a former journalist, so I'm sure she sees where I'm coming from.

About a month ago I bought a GRE test prep and have installed it now, so all I need to do is take the diagnostic test and see where I stand. :P I hate these things. It has been 3 years since I was in school. That is so hard to believe. If I do decide to go back to grad school it will sure be an adjustment. I thought at first that I could maybe stay in this job and do grad school online if I did the library thing, and then if I did the English thing move to Bellingham, but I just don't know. It is all so scary!! I am not worried about the school part. It will be hard and take diligence and a lot of work... more than I ever did in college. It is more the finances and logistical thing that scares me. What if I spend thousands of dollars on school and find out that I hate that as well? How do I know that I'll like it? How does anyone?

My life coach made a good point the other day. She said, "So you want both financial security, and fulfillment from your job?" I hadn't considered that there are people who don't want or at least don't prioritize both. I do want both. The longer I'm single the more I wonder if I'll ever have a man that loves me. It isn't that I'm in despair or anything over that, but it is so extremely rare to find a guy that I have actual sparks with. I mean there are ones that I find extraordinarily handsome and there are those that I have a crush on their personalities, but it is so rare to have a real connection. Maybe only once or twice in my life. Even those I liked for a long time I got bored around if I were to be honest with myself. I mean, I'm nearly 26 years old and have had one boyfriend. Not that that is a bad thing, but really since we broke up four years ago I have been asked out only once. There must be something about me that sends the wrong signals or that doesn't attract guys to ask me out, because even though I don't do the bar hopping thing I have met a few eligible guys. *sigh* I never imagined at 6 years old watching Disney movies that it would be this complicated 20 years later. :(

On the writing side of things, I have a little project that I'd like to spend some time with instead of my book. I think it is publishable, and although my bosses won't publish it, I have gotten permission to publish it elsewhere, albeit under a nom de plume so you'll understand if I don't elaborate on what the project is. Today I'll work on research and then I think the next few days I can work on writing it.

Alright well I'll quit with the rambling!!

Today is day one of my 100 Day Challenge(by the way totals will always reflect a TOTAL not just for that day):
I have lost 2 pounds
I have written 1 page
I have saved a little bit